Monday, 2 August 2010
Fluctuating weight = sizable wardrobe
Before my whole RA ordeal began, I was a “perfect” 10 dress size. I was happy with my weight and even happier with my (enormous) wardrobe (most of which I admit was never worn).
After my diagnosis when the stress, pain and general self loathing kicked in, I began to drop the pounds which ultimately meant wearing what mostly resembled bin liners for clothes (nothing fitted me anymore, damn it). I hated the way I dressed and felt swamped. Everything was baggy, making me look pretty much anorexic and very unwell.
When I started to come to terms with what was happening in my life, I made a conscious effort to care about the way I looked again. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t turn into a tramp overnight but pretty much had more important things to worry about than following the latest trends or piling on the make up.
Obviously by the time I realised how awful I looked, my dress size had dropped to a 6. Some of you may think of this as an excuse for a serious retail therapy trip but when your living on benefits (pretty much pittance a week) and don’t have much energy to invest in trawling round shops it’s a difficult task, even for a shopaholic like me. I invested lots of time scouring the internet for sales, vouchers and essentially shops that actually sell size 6 clothing (not as easy as it may seem) and slowly started to build up my new wardrobe. I decided not to throw out any of my size 10 collection as there was always a chance that I would be that size again.
So with my size 6 wardrobe and taking pride in my appearance again, amazing how when you look good you feel good, I battled on with treatments I have discussed in previous posts. However, now I have started to regain some of the weight I desperately needed, I have another dilemma. Not quite a size 10 but somewhere inbetween a 6 and an 8. What is a girl to do? So additions have been made to the size 6/10 wardrobe in the form of size 8’s. This is getting expensive and tiring, feel like I have my own branch of topshop with some of my clothes being the same style but different sizes. This would all be very well if I actually had the room to store a stock of 3 different sizes of clothing!
The shopping trips, however, are grand but hoping I don’t make it to a size 12…. Then it would get complicated.